Dealing With The Loss of a Loved One.

Losing a loved one can take an unimaginable toll on someone. While some may be able to deal with the pain, others have a harder time coping. I was in this situation at one point and it broke my spirit. At first you’re shocked and you don’t believe what you are hearing. It doesn’t feel real so you try to wake up from the nightmare that you are about to live. It may never truly hit you until the wake, when you can pay your respects to someone taken from this world sooner than you may have liked. Some people can see that they are in a better place, where they can truly be happy. Others can go into a depressed state that could last years depending on how sensitive they are. Speaking from experience, you never truly get over losing someone you were close to. You can smile and laugh about the good times, but when you’re alone and there’s no one to make you think of the good times you break. You realize that you miss them more than you had been letting on. You had been numb from the pain, and it explodes out of you. It does get easier over time to deal with. You never get used to it, but you may be able to handle the situation ¬†better. One of the best things you can do, is talk about how you feel. If you bottle up your emotions, you’ll explode. Not literally, but one day all your bottled up emotions will come pouring out like an endless river. You may not be able to control them, and its hard. So talk to someone, and get help. In the end you’ll see that you’ll feel a lot better getting it off your chest. You are not alone, and you never will be. There are people all around you who are willing to help you through this. Just hold your head up and keeping on living life to its fullest.

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Awkwardness

No one enjoys feeling awkward, it makes us feel invisible. No matter how much we hate it, we are so hesitant to break the silence. So you sit, hoping the other will speak up to end the silence that surrounds you. To me, it feels as if the other person is upset or angered by me in a way that I can’t explain. I have no idea on why they would be, but that’s how I tend to feel. Another name for this awkward pause is the silent treatment. We all know that when given the silent treatment, tension grows between people. Sometimes it can grow so thick that it can be cut with a knife. When this happens between 2 who love each other more than life itself, it becomes unbearable. It can cause one to feel as if the other is losing feelings for them. They feel strained, and it feels as if there is a strain on there relationship. Fears are created and it can end to a falling out. Awkwardness doesn’t benefit anyone, but can be harmful to those least expecting it.

Invisible

One of the worst parts of being in high school is the fact that you feel invisible. You feel as if there isn’t anyone in the world who actually cares about you. Trust me I know how it feels. Its hard, but you have to get through it. There is someone out there who cares about you, and loves you. Just because you may feel alone, you aren’t. High school is just a scary place, if you aren’t popular than who are you? You may not fit into any of the cliques at school, but that isn’t a bad thing. It makes you unique and you should always embrace that uniqueness within you.

I used to always feel invisible. I would say hi to people, or shout their name when I was sitting right next to them. They never seemed to hear me, let alone acknowledge my existence. It was a terrible experience, and I honestly felt so alone. I felt like no one ever saw me. The only time they talked to me is when they needed the answer to the assignment they forgot to do.

I can’t tell you why they do this, but I can tell you that you should continue being you. Don’t let them use you, or take advantage of you. You are special and they are too ignorant to see that. You are different, and maybe a little weird. Who isn’t a little weird these days though? We all have this unique thing about us, embrace it and don’t ever put out the flame you have within you. Let it burn brighter during the darkest hours of night, let it shine brighter than the sun in the morning sky. Just don’t let them cause you to forget who you are or where you came from. You shouldn’t have to change for them to accept you..

 

Alone

Do you ever feel as if you are alone? Like there isn’t a single person who cares about you? The worst part about that is when you know people are just talking to you out of pity, yet for a second you believe them. You get your hopes up thinking you have a friend, then as soon as you know it they are just leading you on. You try to plan sleep overs, or plan to hangout one day and they ignore you. This is why more people are becoming anti-social. Because they feel as if they are just a pitiful excuse. That’s why people create these sob stories, to get sympathy so someone will pay attention to them. I know that no one will ever read this, but if someone happens to stumble upon this than just think about the people you know. Let them know how much you actually care about them, and spend time with them. Don’t let them feel like they are only there when you need someone to brag to, or a shoulder to cry on. Make them feel special, because its hard knowing that people don’t actually wanna be around you…

Petition the Board

Today I found out something very worrying. One of my teachers was suspended for false acusations against him, stating that he flirts with his students. Now all of a sudden, several more teachers are being accused of the same crime. I know these accusations aren’t true, but what am I supposed to do? I can’t just sit here, knowing they are trying to hurt someone who cares and tries to help us succeed in life. I don’t understand why people are so stupid. Is it possible to petition the School Board and get this to end? These girls are just trying to get attention, and they are hurting the credibility of our staff. Its not right, so what should I do? I believe that anything is possible, and I have these teachers in class. They have no voice in this situation. They are only suffering while those girls sit back and enjoy the view. I understand that maybe there is one corrupt teacher in the system, but not 4 or 5. It just doesn’t happen. I need advice so anyone, please repsond or comment on this post. I would really appreciate it.

When Tragedy Strikes

When you lose someone you loved or cared for, nothing in the world can make the pain go away. Many say time heals all wounds, but for some that isn’t the case. I lose someone dear to me, he was not only my coach, but a loved one. I can’t believe he’s gone, taken from this world before I could say good bye. Its hard, the first time you hear they have passed on. It hit me like a ton of bricks, all at once. At first I couldn’t control my reaction, and then the world around me went silent. My emotions disappeared and I became numb. Every few minutes I feel the pain begin creeping back, but I don’t want to come to terms with it. I loved my coach and his family will forever be in my prayers. It’s hard when you lose someone, that pain and memory will always follow you. I can’t tell you how to deal with it, because I don’t know how to handle it. For me, shutting everyone out helps…

Tragedies

LIfe is full of accidents and tragedies. Although we may not know how to handle it we will always have someone there for us. It takes time to be able to move on as well. It’s not an instant thing like everyone assumes. It’s taken me 4 years since my sister passed away and I’m still mourning. There is not time limit in which you are supposed to have stopped grieving. Surround yourself with the ones you love and with your friends. They can help you get through this. Just don’t push them away. I know you may want to be strong and you don’t want anyone to see you cry. You will do more damage to yourself shutting everyone out. It’s ok to cry. No one will ever judge you for crying, it just shows that you’re human that’s all. Why try to hide that? You are loved beyond compare by someone, so let them be there for you. Let them hold you and help lift you up. It’s worth it in the end.